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[22/12/05] Teenager Zhou Feng (the one that commited edit: ATTEMPTED suicide)'s personal letter to Jay
I know the letter is EXTREMELY long, but I don't know, even though this guy is psychotic, it's really sad, and he does have reasons you know...and it's just a sad sad story...
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Your health recently is good? How are you? If this letter can be read by Jay, then, here, I want to represent all Jay Chou fans to wish you well! Hope you have even more girls admire Jay's hottness and love Jay! And perhaps there are more people like me that admire Jay's music ability, only these few springs and winters he has already written these many wonderful songs. They are like me, see Jay's excellent ability for the arts, so successful in his business. Jay, you have individualism, the usual cool expressions, but when you smile, your whole person seems so interesting, making the people who sees your expressions so happy! I have more had understanding about Jay that made me fell in love with his fans (This line doesn't really make much sense...) Hope the Jay in our hearts is healthy and happy! If this world didn't have President Chou's music, I don't know how the fans like us would live. But there's Jay in this world today, because we treasure, that's why Jay's with us today! Jay, we will always love you and support you!
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Like me, in today's situation, a Jay fan, The thing I want more is Jay's love, Jay's help. I wish Jay could be like a God, I even dream how Jay could save my life, give me a chance to hear and understand his future songs. If my sickness can't have cure or therapy, my IQ will become weaker and weaker, my reaction will be slower and slower, my right half of my body will loose its ability to move. The me today is unlucky, the me right now is hopeless, I am too hopeless, in this life time, my family (I'm not really sure if he's talking about his family or not) is the best factor to harm me, the most powerful weapon.
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When I wasn't even 1 years old, my mom and dad sent me to my Grandma's (waipo) house. She raised me. The fortune teller said I can only live until I'm 18, so my parents hid to another provence, Jiangxi to try to raise another kid. In a course of 7 years, they brought home 1 girl and 2 boys. In the care of my Grandma, uncle, and aunts, there were care and love. I remember the year when my parents brought the other three kids back to Jiangxi to live. That year and day, my Grandma had me on her back and climbed many mountains to deliver me to my parent's hands.
During the time I lived with my parents and sister and brothers, I didn't feel any family love, like I'm not even part of the family. Over the littlest things, I would get yelled and beaten. My parents are illiterate and don't understand much. They are farmers. From when I was 7 years old until 12, these harsh conditions fell upon me. Because many people looked down upon my parents, when I was in elementary school, I would often go to my Grandma's house after school on Fridays. At least I was raised partially in her house and we have some emotional bond. And my Grandfather was happy to have me there too, I could help him watch the cows. Even during summer break, I would go to my Grandma's house, I am rarely at home. But when I was 8 or 9 years old, my Grandparents' village caught on fire. My uncle and aunt went to Canto to work for money. When they came back, they organized some of their money and bought a radio and tv. My house and my grandma's house, we all lived in a really poor area, it still is, I would often watch tv, and wait for a good movie to come on.
As I grew older, I loved pop music more and more. My personality is someone who is very happy and talkative, and not stupid. I was interested in all type of shows. Like entertainment news, kungfu movies, etc. This is how I became such a big fan of yours Jay.
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Perhaps my fate was changed when my parents would let me read. They brought me to the city to help them cook. My dad would be outside pull carts while my mom picked up trash. Not long after that, I began to have problems because they would hit me so often. Not only they didn't give me good doctors to cure me, the worst part was they harmed my body and my mental state of mind. Ever since I was born, I never looked up to them, my temper was bad, their abuse created a hatred between me and them, it was worse every time, rising the level. At that time, my illness wasn't as serious, When I was sad or angry, I would go listen to Jay, your songs. After I listen to them, I would become happier. Sometimes I would sit on the grass and listen to your song in my headphones, and suddenly, I would see an airplane. I would think Jay, maybe you would be in that airplane, hoping that the airplane would fall from the sky, but Jay, you wouldn't be hurt. And you would see me, help me, it was that moment when I had the thought of looking for Jay.
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I know all of Jay's songs, if there was one song that I heard by Jay that I didn't know, I would immediately go buy it. Usually it would cost only 3 to 5 yuan in the city. I bought a cassette that had the song "wu yu lun bi" and some songs from YHM, in the song "wu yu lun bi", I heard the name of a Jay website. I wanted to go to that website and leave a message for you, see if Jay, you can read it or not. But I realized later that the website is not realistic. I know that my illness is getting worse and worse, my family members don't care whether I'm alive or not. And I also don't have the money to go to the hospital. A person can only live once, and I have a disease, but I can't do anything about it, this makes me very much in pain. I can't sleep at night and during the day I have to face the abuse from my parents. When I think about it, I have trouble breathing, and when I see the scars on my body, I think about what's the point of living. And I ran away from home. When I found out that Jay, you were having concerts in mainland China, I wanted to find you in this outside world. Knowing that you can help me and help me realize again, the price of being alive.
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I was a "Jay finder", but I can't move easily, every step was hard. My head was not in good use, and I don't have any money. My process of finding you, the pain, can't not be described in such few words. Even though I suffered, compare to home, it was much more comfortable. Simply said, after I found out the concert's first stop was in Shanghai, I went to Shanghai ( I was there too!!!) That's when I realize that it wasn't as easy as I thought to get close to Jay. This was also my first time at a concert. But this time, I couldn't give the letter to you so I set my heart for the next stop, Beijing. But I don't know if it was me who remembered wrong, or the newspaper wrote the date wrong, I couldn't make it to Beijing in time, but two people saw my tag on my bag that said, "Incomparable, Love Jay, searching for Jay, help me Jay," They said to me, "Jay doesn't lack anything except for a loving heart" (LIARS!!!! )
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At the time I thought not everyone understands Jay, and there's so many rumors and sayings in this world, what they said couldn't be true. Their sentence didn't put me down at all on my passion about finding Jay. Also, at Nanjing Wutaishan stadium's entrance, I almost got stepped to death by the crowd, thank goodness for someone helped me up. At Shenzhen Stadium, I was so hungry that I past out. I had enough money for Shenzhen, but it was stolen at Guangzhou train station. I thought Guangzhou is not far from Shenzhen, I couldn't give up this easily, so I climbed onto the train to Shenzhen, almost died of hunger. Now, I knew the outside world is this real, if I can live now, I won't die of hunger, I was helped by the city's help center. Some help stations even gave me 10-20 yuan. I saved them, sometimes going on the internet to listen to Jay's new song.
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If Jay, your last concert at Guangzhou, and I still couldn't give my letter to you, I would have no place to go. Perhaps I can find a road that leads to my death. I guess my chance of finding Jay in Guangzhou won't be very big. I imagined that I come to find you Jay, not just to get your autograph, or a picture of us together, but let you know, Jay, that I need your help. When I had help from you, that's when I really found Jay. The high price for the tickets, I don't have enough money to buy. Probably only a 80 yuan ticket, I called the hotline 020£87769558 to order my ticket, but they said the 80 yuan tickets were already sold out. My plan to find you inside the stadium, Jay has already been ruined. I was hoping to find the reporter Huang Fang from the newspaper for help, because I read some of her entertainment articles in the paper and see if she can give my letter to you. If both these plans won't work, I think I'm going to die. And if I died, I won't admit that I killed myself. But I died because of this envoirment and some people organized themselves and gave me pressure, and I was crushed dead by this pressure. If I left this world, I won't be angry, but I would regret, regret having been a living life in this world, I don't even have the price of being a person. If I was a tree, and was cut down, at least I can say I filled out my duty as a tree.
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[22/12/05] Teenager Zhou Feng (the one that commited edit: ATTEMPTED suicide)'s personal letter to Jay
I know the letter is EXTREMELY long, but I don't know, even though this guy is psychotic, it's really sad, and he does have reasons you know...and it's just a sad sad story...
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Your health recently is good? How are you? If this letter can be read by Jay, then, here, I want to represent all Jay Chou fans to wish you well! Hope you have even more girls admire Jay's hottness and love Jay! And perhaps there are more people like me that admire Jay's music ability, only these few springs and winters he has already written these many wonderful songs. They are like me, see Jay's excellent ability for the arts, so successful in his business. Jay, you have individualism, the usual cool expressions, but when you smile, your whole person seems so interesting, making the people who sees your expressions so happy! I have more had understanding about Jay that made me fell in love with his fans (This line doesn't really make much sense...) Hope the Jay in our hearts is healthy and happy! If this world didn't have President Chou's music, I don't know how the fans like us would live. But there's Jay in this world today, because we treasure, that's why Jay's with us today! Jay, we will always love you and support you!
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Like me, in today's situation, a Jay fan, The thing I want more is Jay's love, Jay's help. I wish Jay could be like a God, I even dream how Jay could save my life, give me a chance to hear and understand his future songs. If my sickness can't have cure or therapy, my IQ will become weaker and weaker, my reaction will be slower and slower, my right half of my body will loose its ability to move. The me today is unlucky, the me right now is hopeless, I am too hopeless, in this life time, my family (I'm not really sure if he's talking about his family or not) is the best factor to harm me, the most powerful weapon.
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When I wasn't even 1 years old, my mom and dad sent me to my Grandma's (waipo) house. She raised me. The fortune teller said I can only live until I'm 18, so my parents hid to another provence, Jiangxi to try to raise another kid. In a course of 7 years, they brought home 1 girl and 2 boys. In the care of my Grandma, uncle, and aunts, there were care and love. I remember the year when my parents brought the other three kids back to Jiangxi to live. That year and day, my Grandma had me on her back and climbed many mountains to deliver me to my parent's hands.
During the time I lived with my parents and sister and brothers, I didn't feel any family love, like I'm not even part of the family. Over the littlest things, I would get yelled and beaten. My parents are illiterate and don't understand much. They are farmers. From when I was 7 years old until 12, these harsh conditions fell upon me. Because many people looked down upon my parents, when I was in elementary school, I would often go to my Grandma's house after school on Fridays. At least I was raised partially in her house and we have some emotional bond. And my Grandfather was happy to have me there too, I could help him watch the cows. Even during summer break, I would go to my Grandma's house, I am rarely at home. But when I was 8 or 9 years old, my Grandparents' village caught on fire. My uncle and aunt went to Canto to work for money. When they came back, they organized some of their money and bought a radio and tv. My house and my grandma's house, we all lived in a really poor area, it still is, I would often watch tv, and wait for a good movie to come on.
As I grew older, I loved pop music more and more. My personality is someone who is very happy and talkative, and not stupid. I was interested in all type of shows. Like entertainment news, kungfu movies, etc. This is how I became such a big fan of yours Jay.
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Perhaps my fate was changed when my parents would let me read. They brought me to the city to help them cook. My dad would be outside pull carts while my mom picked up trash. Not long after that, I began to have problems because they would hit me so often. Not only they didn't give me good doctors to cure me, the worst part was they harmed my body and my mental state of mind. Ever since I was born, I never looked up to them, my temper was bad, their abuse created a hatred between me and them, it was worse every time, rising the level. At that time, my illness wasn't as serious, When I was sad or angry, I would go listen to Jay, your songs. After I listen to them, I would become happier. Sometimes I would sit on the grass and listen to your song in my headphones, and suddenly, I would see an airplane. I would think Jay, maybe you would be in that airplane, hoping that the airplane would fall from the sky, but Jay, you wouldn't be hurt. And you would see me, help me, it was that moment when I had the thought of looking for Jay.
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I know all of Jay's songs, if there was one song that I heard by Jay that I didn't know, I would immediately go buy it. Usually it would cost only 3 to 5 yuan in the city. I bought a cassette that had the song "wu yu lun bi" and some songs from YHM, in the song "wu yu lun bi", I heard the name of a Jay website. I wanted to go to that website and leave a message for you, see if Jay, you can read it or not. But I realized later that the website is not realistic. I know that my illness is getting worse and worse, my family members don't care whether I'm alive or not. And I also don't have the money to go to the hospital. A person can only live once, and I have a disease, but I can't do anything about it, this makes me very much in pain. I can't sleep at night and during the day I have to face the abuse from my parents. When I think about it, I have trouble breathing, and when I see the scars on my body, I think about what's the point of living. And I ran away from home. When I found out that Jay, you were having concerts in mainland China, I wanted to find you in this outside world. Knowing that you can help me and help me realize again, the price of being alive.
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I was a "Jay finder", but I can't move easily, every step was hard. My head was not in good use, and I don't have any money. My process of finding you, the pain, can't not be described in such few words. Even though I suffered, compare to home, it was much more comfortable. Simply said, after I found out the concert's first stop was in Shanghai, I went to Shanghai ( I was there too!!!) That's when I realize that it wasn't as easy as I thought to get close to Jay. This was also my first time at a concert. But this time, I couldn't give the letter to you so I set my heart for the next stop, Beijing. But I don't know if it was me who remembered wrong, or the newspaper wrote the date wrong, I couldn't make it to Beijing in time, but two people saw my tag on my bag that said, "Incomparable, Love Jay, searching for Jay, help me Jay," They said to me, "Jay doesn't lack anything except for a loving heart" (LIARS!!!! )
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If Jay, your last concert at Guangzhou, and I still couldn't give my letter to you, I would have no place to go. Perhaps I can find a road that leads to my death. I guess my chance of finding Jay in Guangzhou won't be very big. I imagined that I come to find you Jay, not just to get your autograph, or a picture of us together, but let you know, Jay, that I need your help. When I had help from you, that's when I really found Jay. The high price for the tickets, I don't have enough money to buy. Probably only a 80 yuan ticket, I called the hotline 020£87769558 to order my ticket, but they said the 80 yuan tickets were already sold out. My plan to find you inside the stadium, Jay has already been ruined. I was hoping to find the reporter Huang Fang from the newspaper for help, because I read some of her entertainment articles in the paper and see if she can give my letter to you. If both these plans won't work, I think I'm going to die. And if I died, I won't admit that I killed myself. But I died because of this envoirment and some people organized themselves and gave me pressure, and I was crushed dead by this pressure. If I left this world, I won't be angry, but I would regret, regret having been a living life in this world, I don't even have the price of being a person. If I was a tree, and was cut down, at least I can say I filled out my duty as a tree.
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